I am thinking of making a difference here all the time but always interrupted by some trivial stuffs. 

I am tired of doing a part-time job with low wages and struggling to find a good one.

I am always wasting time when i am not sure what i need to do.

Jie said, "If the project does not go well, it is mainly your fault,", I know that.

Here we go, let today be the minestone of my phD.